I threw up...

I threw up for the first time last night. Well...not ever but during the pregnancy. It was awful. My sister Jayme had horrible morning sickness when she was pregnant with her daughter Ryleigh. I remember the first time she threw up was at mine and my then-boyfriend's apartment and he looked at me and was like, "Is this normal...?" I assured him through her gagging and puking noises coming from the bathroom that yes, it was normal and it will be okay. Well, other than the fact that Jayme ended up losing a significant amount of weight from never keeping anything down, and she ended up having to be put on nausea medication.

I told Jayme today that I threw up last night, and I could just see her grin through the phone. "Yep, this is about the time it started for me." I nervously laughed and considered what a horror to be that sick over the next few months. Throwing up once is terrible enough, but everyday...multiple times a day...violently, I might add. No. Not me. I can't. I already cry when I throw up because I'm convinced I'm dying.

Guys, real talk right now...I can be a huge wiener when it comes to pain and bad physical experiences. I'm not the worst, but I'm really not even tolerable. I don't know what it is. I think it's because I've just always been really healthy. I mean, I never even had my blood drawn before until my first pregnancy exam. My sister has always been very tough. She had a lot of medical issues when she was young, so being poked and prodded with needles and such became just a fact of life that she had to accept. I think that translated over into a pretty good tolerance for pain. But me...I just never got sick or hurt. I broke my arm when I was eleven and fractured the other at twelve. That's about the extent. So when something happens, like when I throw up or have a nosebleed (had my first one ever this year), I'm not a baby, but I tend to not believe that the pain and discomfort is normal. Like, "Is this really how it is for everyone?! It can't be, this is just too terrible!"
I know will have plenty of opportunities to be a wiener about things later on. Having a baby is not exactly a walk in the park. But right now, the idea of throwing up everyday or even often...is just as bad.